ok, so I had a pretty horrible day at work today…it started out ok…other than my neck and back hurting pretty badly just like they have been for about a week now. other than that it was pretty much a usual day working at a daycare..then it went downhill kind of fast.
I’m a floater at work, so that means that I get to go around the center and let everyone go on there lunch breaks everyday. Well, when I went into the Toddler Room to let a girl go on her break, she pretty much goes off on me about putting the wrong sheets on the wrong cots the day before…all of the cots are numbered…and apparently so are the sheets. And I didn’t realize that it mattered so much that the sheet number matched the cot number. So yesterday, I just put the sheets on the cots as fast as I could so that I could get all the kids down for a nap….and today I got griped at because of it. I don’t think it would have bothered me so much, but the way she went about it…and the tone she used with me…well, she was really hateful and rude about it.
Well, after she left for her break another one of my coworkers saw that I was mad and asked what had happened…but me being me, I broke down crying because I was so upset. Then the assistant director came to help me put the kids to sleep…and asked me what happened…so I pretty much broke down again…and then I had to retell it again to another coworker..so I cried again. When I finally got to leave that room and go do another break, another coworker, Stephanie, asked me what was wrong because something had to be wrong if I wasn’t smiling…and I just shook my head and told her if I talked about it I would cry again. I left to go do something for a couple of minutes and when I came back she told me that they told her what happened and she asked me if I was alright and if she needed to beat someone up for me…even though she’s nearly 5 months pregnant. She said she couldn’t believe that anyone would be mean to me, because I’m so sweet and I always do everything without complaining, and am always willing to help….which made me cry AGAIN! After that, I was done crying for a while…until I told my mom what had happened…which made me cry yet again. I feel like that’s all I’ve done today.
Ok, glad to get that out.
Not sure if that even made all that much sense…but I don’t even really care if anyone really reads all of this…if you just did…thanks…but all I really cared about was getting it out. I’m just hoping that tomorrow will be better.
Also, my back and neck still hurt really bad….don’t know what I’m going to do to make them better. I really need to see a chiropractor..but with no insurance I just can’t afford it. I can usually handle the pain, but it keeps me up at night, which means I’ve been extra tired on top of everything else. I’m praying for a good night’s sleep tonight…and that I have a much better day tomorrow than today…oh, and we are having evaluations at work tomorrow…I think I should do ok…but still pretty nervous about it.
I haven’t quite decided whether I should just post my thoughts and stuff on this blog or do something else….but for this post I think I’ll do something else.
The other day I was just looking around online and some way or another I found my way to the website of photographer Jeremy Cowart. If you’ve never heard of him…well, let’s just say that you are missing out, because his work is amazing! He does a lot of celebrity photos (musicians, actors, and the like) but he also has a lot of other amazing work, too…my favorite being his photos from Africa. Seeing as this blog is so new, that means that I have yet to share about my passion for Africa. I don’t really feel like going into a lot of detail…so I’ll just say that even though I have never even been to Africa, that’s where part of my heart is. Last summer, I was going to get to spend a month in South Africa and Mozambique on a mission trip, but due to the lack of financial backing, I had to stay here in the US, while the team that I’d spent months preparing and praying with went without me. I was okay with staying here, because I knew that God had other plans for me that summer….but I’m pretty sure that a piece of my heart went with that group to Africa and didn’t come back. I’m not sure when, but someday I will go there and I will do all that I can to help..even if all I can do is give someone a hug and tell them that God loves them…that is what I will do.
ok, so no more talking about that right now.
it won’t let me link to individual pictures from his site, so just go check out all of Jeremy Cowart’s Africa pictures here.
also, here is a my favorite picture out of all the pictures that my friends took on the trip last summer. It was taken by my friend, Emily, in Mozambique…actually, she says that this picture was a complete accident…but I absolutely LOVE it!
Also, there is another group of about 50 students going back to South Africa and Mozambique on May 30 of this year…including quite a few of my very close friends…so if you’re reading this….keep them in your prayers as they are still raising money and preparing for the month long trip.
