can i just say being sick absolutely stinks! I’ve been fighting a cold for almost a week now…it started out as just a stuffed up nose and a little bit of a scratchy throat…now it’s like someone is turning a valve in my nose on and off every few minutes….it’s running one minute and completely stuffed up the next…unless of course I’m having a sneezing fit, which happens pretty often, too…all that, combined with the beginnings of a nasty cough…and to make matters worse…the sinus headaches have started. It’s official…my sinus cavities hate me! That’s what I get for working with babies, I guess.
on a more possitive note. this year I’ve decided that I’m going to really try to lose weight and get healthy. I don’t normally make New Year’s Resolutions…but that is one that I made this year….pretty cliche…but it’s way past due for me to do this. A bunch of the girls at work are trying to lose weight, too, so that helps a lot! Several of them are doing Weight Watchers, so I’ve decided to join, too. So last friday I joined online. I don’t really have time to go to meetings each week and it’s so much cheaper to do it online. I’ve been really good about tracking my points so far. It helps that it’s a lot easier to do than I thought it would be. From friday until yesterday I had already lost 4 lbs….so hopefully that’s good sign that this time I’ll actually be able to lose some weight. It’s really helping that so many of my friends at work are doing weight watchers too. It’s almost like having a free meeting right there at work. I’m also starting to exercise more. I’ve been either walking or when it’s too cold…like it has been, I’ve just been working out at home. it’s a little harder to keep at it when I’m feeling so horrible, but hopefully this stupid cold will go away soon, so I can get back to my routine.
so, my application for Africa was officially accepted…so as long as God provides the money, I will be going to Africa this summer! I’ve got a few more finishing touches to put on my support letters, and then I just have to hurry up and get addresses and send them out. This is the part that really makes me nervous. I’ve failed miserably at the support raising part in the past…so I’m really trying to be positive about it this time around. I’m not quite as nervous about asking people…I’m just afraid that I’m gonna run out of people to ask…and that the people I ask won’t give…and then I’ll be in the same situation as last time. But I know God has called me to go, so I know that He will provide for me as well. That’s something that I’m really trying to work on learning lately. God’s provision. So many times I try to do things in my own time or the way I want to do them…but what I really need to do is just let the things that God has planned for my life happen when He wants them to. It’s so hard to just let go and live the life that God wants for me. Why do I have to be so stubborn sometimes? I guess I’ve just been so used to living my life and having to make decisions about what I want to do with my life that I often forget that God already has great things planned for me. I don’t think I’ve told very many people this, but I have a really hard time with money. Not just the lack of money that i’ve dealt with all my life. More like I have a hard time managing what money I do have. I’m horrible at saving money…even though I really need to be putting money back. besides helping my mom out with bills and paying on my student loan…I don’t really have a lot of monthly bills of my own right now. So theoretically I should be able to put a pretty good chunk of my paycheck into savings each month…but then there’s all the little stuff that comes up every month…and each month I end up telling myself that I’ll start a savings account with the next paycheck. well…i’ve been telling myself that now for a year. so hopefully I can do it next month…but who knows..it’ll probably be the same old song and dance… the thing is that until I do this, I won’t be able to get back into school…because I have to save money to be able to pay UCA back. That’s part of what I’m trying to learn about God’s provision. I’ve decided that this year I am determined to tithe 10% every month…I’ve never been great at tithing…and when i did it was very rarely the full 10%…so that’s one of my goals this year. That’s something that I’m hoping will help me start trusting in God’s provision a little more….because when I can trust Him with that 10% then I will hopefully be able to trust Him with the rest.
ok…that was a lot longer than I expected it to be. hopefully my rambling made some sense.
